I will admit that my first missed long run Sunday in just over two years has been traumatic. Coupled with the fact that the final two weeks of the year are historically some of my most productive mileage weeks, and that I was on pace, as of December 14th, for my first 1,500 mile year, and that I am in the middle of a strong marathon training plan, and there is good concern over the potential for downright depression.
But this setback has been different. Maybe it's a new perspective in the light of Newtown, CT. Or maybe it's simply a new perspective in the light of greater spiritual maturity. But I have not lost sight of how blessed I have been to stay healthy for so long and how good those runs feel when the back pain goes away. I have been surprisingly calm about this season and repeatedly tell myself how fresh my legs will be when it's time to lace them up again (hopefully within two or three weeks).
I am praying for continued patience and perspective. I am also praying for healing. Back pain is a horribly debilitating condition. The chronic nature of it, with it's limitations on movement and impact on mood, can be exhausting. So I am especially prayerful that my focus be on the upcoming Run For God Season 2 and in my worship. Running or not, I am blessed to worship and praise His name.